Not Going Through This Battle Alone

I had a long and tedious day today.I was on my way home,relieved to know it was another lovely Friday.Better yet,I got over all my finals.I rushed over hastily down Main Street,to make it to my bus.Thankfully,I reached it just in time.I slipped my card in and then retrieved it.I lethargically sat down and slouched a little in my seat.It had been a long day for me.I stared blankly into space as the bus driver began to drive.I saw this young teenager who was about 16 or 17?I really don’t know.But I saw him take out a petite little book.I thought to myself hey,what is he reading?I noticed how the sides of the pages were golden and the words were all neatly aligned into two columns in each page.It made me think wait,is he reading the Bible?My eyes constantly bounced back and forth from his book to some other place.I didn’t want him to think that I was staring at him.Because that would be awkward. o_o Honestly,I was just curious to see if he was reading the Bible or not.When it was his stop,I saw him close his book.At the side it said NLT.Turns out,that means New Living Translation.I thought cool!!It is the Bible!!! Sometimes,it feels overwhelming to know that we’re living in a world which we know isn’t our permanent home.But of course,that thought can help us to remember that we have to be strong and that God is still there to help us carry through.It really blessed me though,to see another person,at such a young age,to read the Bible in a public place,such as the bus.And from this whole freshman year,I have met tons of people,who I can say are real Christians.It makes me happy to know that I am not alone.This world is a big place full of many different people.But through the flood of crowded people,there are also many souls who are saved by Jesus Christ.It just overwhelms me,because it’s been so many months since the last time I attended church.I’m just comforted by the reminder that I’m not going through this battle alone.And I thank God for this reminder.

Lately....

I’ve been scared for a lot of thing.I’m afraid if I’ll pass all my finals.I’m scared about the Regents coming up.I’ve been very concerned about the final grades on my transcript.Has it been that way all year long in high school?I’m talking about fear.Has fear been preoccupying me all this time?I feel so ashamed.Ashamed that I would be so wrapped into these cirumcstances.Now,I’m not saying that all freshman year,I was fearing over finals and whatnot.But the thing was…almost every single day the thought in my mind was "Let’s get through this day.Let’s get though this week.Let’s through this marking period."Was I living my life day in and day out emotionless?I study hard the night before every test.(I know..not a good habit)I get squashed with piles of homework everyday.Sometimes I end up with only 3 or 4 hours of sleep.I never sleep the required 8 hours.When I look at how I’ve been living this whole freshman year,I feel so empty inside,like all along I’ve been a lifeless zombie.Yes on a weekly basis,I take out my bible for comfort.But for a the past couple of months,I’ve realized that I haven’t been praying to God necessarily every day.Well,most of the time I do pray.But there are nights when I drop dead in bed,and because I’m so tired, I forget to pray.Can I deny the truth?Not at all.And it makes me want to cry,seeing how I’ve neglected so many things.I feel like I’ve been washed out along the current of the sea and all I’ve ever been doing was going with the flow.What happened to my purpose here in this world?Surely,I’m living here for so much more.God put me in this world for a reason.And I need to fulfill that reason.I want to live and breathe life again.I want God to move me again.I want to cry out tears and lose my sane for God again.Because it feels so good when I do that.I don’t care what the world thinks.I want to be that same old Dara again who was once crazy for God and everyday I had a good reason to smile.So it’s time to pick myself up and dust myself off.It’s time that I pick up the phone from the wake up call.I’m done with sleeping.It’s time that I start living life again…no matter what the circumstances are.

God Please Help Me...

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"God please help me to get through all of the stress from finals,regents,and everything else... >.< I seriously need your help.I need to remember that 'I can do all things through Christ,who strengthens me.' Philippians 4:13 Please help me Lord."

Yeah I'm sorry.I know I don't write on my blog frequently as much as I did last year.It's just that nowadays I'm always busy in high school.I might be even more busy in college three years from now.I don't want a month to pass by without me posting a blog post.I want to show that God is still moving in my life.He's moving in every one of His children's lives.

I'm feeling pretty scared and anxious for the upcoming finals and regents.I'm not the brightest students around.I may have decent grades.I do try my hardest in school.But I'm a forgetful person.I learn something new in a lesson.We have a test...have a new lesson...and I forget what I learned in the previous lesson.So yeah...I barely remember what I've learned throughout the entire school year.That's why I'm studying hard and praying that I'll make it through.I know I will...because God is here to help.

A Precious Sacrifice

You were hurt so much by the sins of man.
But instead of punishment you had a different plan.
Because of your love so infinite and great.
You carried the shame with all the weight.
As the Father you gave your most precious Son.
We became forgiven when the sacrifice was done.
You took all the lashes, the scrapes, and the pain.
You bled for a world that had no sane.
You came unto Earth from heaven above.
You were blameless yet you took all the shame for love.
There is proof that you are God because you rose from the grave.
It is written that you are mighty to save.
It brings me to my knees to know you did this all.
For us foolish humans who were bound to fall.
Lost and confused, we had no real direction.
We are nothing compared to your holy perfection.
But you changed that all when you opened up our eyes.
You made everything clear from the devil's disguise.
You gave us real life and guided us through.
And now we're set free by our faith in you.
And I want to thank you for all that you've done.
Thank you Abba Father, Holy Spirit, and Son.

Written By: Dara Jane Sy
Copyright © 2010

John 3:16: For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son.That whoever believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.

Romans 3:24-25: The free gift of God's grace makes all of us right with him.Christ Jesus paid the price to set us free.God gave him as a sacrifice to pay for sins.So he forgives the sins of those who have faith in his blood.

Matthew 28:2-7: There was a powerful earthquake.An angel of the Lord came down from heaven.The angel went to the tomb.He rolled back the stone and sat on it.His body shone like lightning.His clothes were as white as snow.The guards were so afraid of him that they shook and became like dead men.The angel said to the women,"Don't be afraid.I know that you are looking for Jesus,who was crucified.He is not here!He has risen,just as he said he would!Come and see the place where he was lying.Go quickly!Tell his disciples,'He has risen from the dead.He is going ahead of you into Galilee.There you will see him.'Now I have told you."

Happy Easter everyone!!!We obviously know it's not about the dyed eggs,the bunny,or the chocolate. o.o But about God's most precious sacrifice.I know Easter is only one day in a year.But it definitely is a great reminder to us of what our God has done.It's sad to say that sometimes I get so preoccupied by my own circumstances in life,that I sometimes forget what Jesus Christ has done.Well I don't literally forget,but I don't acknowledge it at times.I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one.That's why we should glorify God in every way possible.He truly does deserve it.Thank God for what he's done!The thought of this sometimes just makes me cry really hard.But anyway that's all I want to say.God bless you all!! XD

The Love And The Patience of God

I feel like I've had my heart bitter and hard for too long.I remembered how irritable I was earlier when this week started.I was having a rough Wednesday.I felt like I wanted to shut myself out from the whole world just for a little while.But of course,I didn't have that option when I still had a whole day of school ahead of me.Life has been rough for me nowadays.It especially hasn't been easy this past week.It was a miracle when I had a snow day on Friday 2/26/10.It added onto my usual two day weekend,making it a three day weekend.That made me very happy.However,it was tragedy for me when I came back to school;and all the teachers threw all these homeworks,tests,and quizzes in my face out of nowhere.I mean sure,hey,it's high school.Of course I'd have to expect a lot of work.And of course I know I have an obligation to respect my teachers as well.But it made me feel bottled up inside with so many mixed up emotions.It made me feel stressed,miserable,overwhelmed,and even angry.What provoked me the most,was my Chorus test.I barely understood the rhythm practices and stuff.It made me feel angry that I was expected to learn everything by Thursday and Friday.The teacher especially made me tense when she said that this test will be 75% of our grade for this marking period.And she was obviously not kidding.Earlier this week some person hit my in the head with a racket in gym.Of course it was accidental,but that also provoked me.The days passed by slowly and I kept hanging on.I continuously dozed off and zoned out in some classes,when I tried not too.Sometimes it's simply just hard for me as one person.Sometimes I couldn't help but burst into tears.Sometimes I couldn't help but ask why?Over and over again I asked why why why?I'd wonder if this feeling was what they called depression.But somehow...through the pain and all the tears,I feel that God tells me something very important.But He didn't just tell me this now.He's told me many times before,in many kinds of ways.Sometimes whenever my parents would correct me of my mistakes,I feel like God spoke through them to give me reminders.Sometimes the randoms acts of kindness from complete total strangers, help me to feel God's love.One time,an elderly woman on the busy street tapped my shoulder just to tell me that I dropped my wallet.Sometimes the beauty of the sun peering through white puffy clouds,or the gracefulness of rain pouring down,brings a smile to my face.Sometimes I hear the Holy Spirit gently speaking inside of me for comfort.No matter how God shows it,it certainly gives me good reminders.It makes me think of how long God has waited for the people of this world to open up their eyes and apologize.In 2 Peter 3:8-9 it says,"Dear friends,here is one thing you must not forget.With the Lord a day is like a thousand years.And a thousand years are like a day.The Lord is not slow to keep His promise.He is not slow in the way some people understand it.He is patient with you.He doesn't want anyone to be destroyed.Instead,He wants all people to turn away from their sins." With a kind of patience like that,God is truly merciful and loving.I believe that God's love is a special kind of love.It's not like the dead, plastic, temporary, and shallow "love" that comes from this world.The love that comes from God is infinite.This whole entire time,God has been hurt by the people He created.Can you imagine God giving His one only Son to the world who hurts Him so much?He does this by His grace, mercy, and love.A well known verse already shows this in John 3:16,"God so loved the world that He gave His one and only son.Whoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life." People who take Jesus Christ in as their personal Lord and Savior,will build an intimate relationship with Him.As they get to know God they start to understand more things.I guess everyone has their bad days and rough moments.At times like these it's normal to feel like your about to fall off the edge.However,in 1 Corinthians 13:12 it says,"Now we see only a dim likeness of things.It is as if we were seeing them in a mirror.But someday we will see clearly.We will see face to face.What I know now is not complete.But someday I will know completely,just as God knows me completely." This verse goes for the times we can't help but ask questions.But we just have to be patient and hang onto God and our faith.In Matthew 24:13 it says,"But the one who stands firm to the end will be saved." I know sometimes,situations in this life can shift my emotions.But I can't allow myself to give in so easily.No other child of God should either.We live with the life of Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit lives in us.We are new creations so why must we act in the same way we were before we knew God?How would that make us any different from the people of this world?How would we be the salts and the lights then?All I can say is...the love and the patience of God truly brings me down to my knees.It reminds me of my true place and it humbles me.It makes me feel determined to try and live my life with that kind of love and patience.But I know I have a LONG way to go.As a human being alone,my own knowledge is already foolish.I'll just fall down without God on my side.That's why I ask for help and wisdom from God.I encourage you to do the same.Because in Proverbs 3:5-6 it says,"Trust in the Lord with all your heart.Don't rely on your own understanding.In all your ways,remember Him.Then He will make your paths smooth and straight." Life truly is tough here on this imperfect, temporal, and corrupt world.But that's why God is here to help us.He has always been here,willing to help.We just have to give up on our stubbornness.I'm so glad I can find hope and comfort whenever I cry for God's help.