All Partings and Goodbyes

It didn't hit me until now... 

I'm close with all these friends who eventually want to leave the country in the future.

It makes me sad, but for unconditional love, I shall let them go (obviously).

It was my prime goal....to stay in NY for the fact that all my friends are there. Suddenly, reality snapped at me when one of my closest friends said that she was thinking of moving to Korea or Japan. I remembered even earlier this year one of my other friends said that she wanted to go back to China.



So there's my reality. As much as I love these friends and as much as they may love me, our fates cross at some point and then our encounter shall have depart. Like lines crossed on another, they shall have their separation.

It's alright. It's a part of life. Whether I like it or not, all people come and go, not because friendships or the love has died, but because everyone is called to a unique destiny.

That's fine with me.

When I first entered high school, I made the biggest oath to never get close with anyone or call anyone "best friend." I turned my back on all my personal promises when I started to fall in love with these people. I made such a young promise to myself because all the best friends I knew eventually became mere friends, who gradually became acquaintances that inevitably turned into strangers.

Only the love of God can last. People may part and separate for the longest time. Only in the time in between can we call out our truest friends.

I humbly bid my goodbyes, even though we're just in different colleges now. Soon after, they will move to where they feel they belong. Goodbye best friends. You have given me the happiest memories and the best years of high school. I will always you. I hope you don't forget me.

Now, I've got nothing to lose if I move as far as California.

Despite the hurt, I do not give up

It’s weird how drastically fate can alter things in so little time. How the people dear to your heart are suddenly catapulted a million miles away. How the one who you sincerely trusted rapidly becomes an enemy. Despite a short distance, they have become unreachable, because they no longer want to be reached by you. Whatever days that shone brightly with the sun somehow turns into a period of gloom and darkness. Whatever conversations that were once saturated with laughter and bonding of friendship, abruptly shifts into a shudder of silence. 

I should have learned from life’s lessons long before. I should have recognized the patterns that life’s trials have thrown my way. I should have been calloused by the embitterment of disappointment and pain. 

Such unfortunate occasions should have destroyed my ability to open and trust. 

Nonetheless, as broken as the world is, as imperfect as humanity is, as foolish as my heart is, I do not give up on the hope, power, and love of God that can fix, heal, and save all things.

Lord,

When your spirit wants me to be silent, may he teach me and speak to my heart. When your spirit wants me to speak, may your points be set across and known. God, please speak to me and speak through me. Thank you, Jesus. 

Keep In Note

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I have to keep praying.

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I have to keep my head up to the heavens.

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I should know that I belong to God.

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I should guard my heart.

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God’s anointing will be my GUIDE.

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Let the Holy Spirit direct my every step.

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My life is for and always will be — FOR GOD!!

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Praise Yeshua, always.